I'm backkkk

Man... it's been awhile hasn't it?
I'm still here.
I think, lol.

Updates;

Im actually sticking to my diet!
I've lost 9 lbs in about three weeks, which might not sound like much but it's a start. I'm not sticking to it as much as I should, especially with all the cooking going on. But after Thursday that will change.

I have a boyfriend. Nothing to elaborate about. It's not really going anywhere. We'll probably dump the title and go back to fuck buddies before Christmas.

I thought I had lost that guy I had the situation with. Turns out I didn't. And I should have known better than to think he would just disappear on me like that. Guess he wasn't lying when he told me he loved me...

I got a new job (finally!). Im a cashier at a Pilot truck stop. Meh. It's nothing special, but I need some money while I'm in school so I can finally move out. I'm tired of sleeping on the floor (it was a couch but my dad got rid of the old one and got a new one and told me I wasnt allowed to lay on it Yay..) My back is killing me and I'm getting around 30 mins of sleep a night if I'm lucky. Its not healthy -_-

Overall, things have been moderately okay. Hopefully they'll be getting better soon. God willing.

-Evie

Just For The Record

Diets suck.
I'm so hungry.
Meh.

And So It Begins...

[Edit]

This post was stupid.
Haaa

Mmm.
Vodka.

Proud Obama Mama!

Can you believe it? Our first African American president. It's a wonderful feeling knowing that today something was accomplished that many never thought would happen. I'm one proud American today. My first time voting. Watching the election unfold as poll results poured in. One day, when I'm sitting with my grandchildren telling them stories about when I was young, I'll be able to say "I voted for the first African American president". Sorry if I sound dramatic, but I'm really excited to be a part of all this. Hehe. Moving on.


I'm fat. And you know what? It's really not all that bad. Smileyface, lol.

-Evie

Geometry and Green Tea

I've never really noticed how hard it is for me to actually focus on things for more than a few minutes at a time. Mostly with my school work. I'm behind. Weeks behind, actually. Not only that but my grades are falling. I went from all A's to a mix of B's, C's and D's. It's pathetic, but true. I've simply lost interest and I hate it. This year has not been what I had hoped. I shouldn't be taking online classes for my senior year. I should be going to highschool with my friends and enjoying the last year I'll be able to be with them all. But, I guess God had different plans for me.

Anyway.

Wherever I sat—on the deck of a ship or at a street café in Paris or Bangkok—I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air - Sylvia Plath

So true. No matter what the circumstances, I feel trapped. Like there is no escaping the madness around me. Oh miss sylvia plath, how you so precisely speak to my soul.

Insane in the membrane.

Mmm, indeed...

- Evie

Okay, I swear I haven't died

Nope, I'm still here. Just slacking on my updating (horrible I know!). But gosh, I have been soo busy. Between school, and pictures I'm just swamped. Speaking of pictures, I think I have a goal!
(Woohoo for goals xD)
So... Thanks to FF, I have found a site I would like to apply for. I've thought long and hard about it, and I think the Pin Up Girl direction would be better for me (especially just starting out) instead of doing the more in your face hardcore stuff. Besides, I think right now I'll be more comfortable with the erotic nudity with my progressive weight loss. Hmm... any opinions?
Email or comment me with what you guys think. I'd love to have some feedback.

-Evie

I Always Feel Like Somebodies Watching Me...

Wow. So, I log on here and scroll down to the bottom of my page. And BAM! Im surprised to see that I have had over 80 visitors in the last few days. Its almost too hard to fathom that there are THAT many people viewing this gibberish. Oh well though, I hope you guys are enjoying it =)

Anyhoo... it's 4am. I will definitely post a real entry later.. I just wanted to have SOMETHING down.

Til then...

-Evie